A Day with no one with me.

It's 7.00 pm now.. and i have been spending my entire day inside my hostel... imagine without going out to anywhere...=(  that feeling is back again.. that kind of bored n loneliness... i doesn't wanna be ALONE ever again..
i doesn't want to be a burden to anyone. but i just realized that i had made my friends life difficult.. I'm so SORRY. I'm not worth for anyone... Please don't treat me so good.. the more you do that, the more i feel guilty.. if we wouldn't start this at first, u wouldn't have so much trouble... i really SORRY.
i shouldn't have lied to my mom.. or, i shouldn't even go out with my friends.. by that way, they will have enjoy their holiday.

7.30pm : listening to songs and planning what to do on the next day. sad songs just make me even sad..